My sister had just returned home from Haiti for a week-long visit. She eagerly shared facts about Haiti, stories, and details of her life there. I did not feel the same excitement. I struggled to reconcile my passion for missions with the reality that God had not granted my longing. He had, however, granted my sister’s.
I continued to wrestle with these emotions when she left as I took on the role of updating friends, family, and acquaintances on her life and ministry in Haiti. The comments felt like stabs at my heart.
“It looks like she’s doing a good work down there.”
“It looks like she found her place.”
“Yay, for second oldest daughter missionaries!”
I felt forgotten. It felt cruel to be left behind.
The Potter and the Clay
Have you ever worked with clay?
As a child, my family liked to visit a children’s museum annually. This museum had an art room with several project stations. One station, the pottery station, provided each child with a lump of clay. My sisters and I would make pots. We’d begin by jabbing a thumb into the pliable clay. Then, under pinched fingers, a pot would form.
The Bible likens God to a potter: “But now, O Lord, you are our father; we are the clay, and You our potter; and we all are the work of Your hand.” (Isaiah 64:8) We are likened to the moldable lump of clay.
Rather than surrendering as clay in the hand of the potter I clung to my “right” to have my desires fulfilled. Romans 9:20 describes my attitude well: “Shall the thing formed say to Him that formed it, why have you made me thus?” Somewhere along the way, I forgot that my life is not my own. I was bought with a price– the precious blood of Jesus. (1 Corinthians 6:19-20)
I believed the lie that God had given me less than best. I felt forgotten because I viewed my circumstances through my unsatisfied expectations rather than through the lens of God’s Word. Jesus hadn’t changed. In fact, He can’t. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. (Hebrews 13:8) His Word still held the same promises.
Come to Jesus
Dear friend, whether you are in a season of plenty or one that has left you feeling forgotten Jesus is still the same. He will not waste a life He created and purchased with His blood. You can trust His Word which is full of “exceeding great and precious promises.” (2 Peter 1:4) Come pour out your heart before Him. (Psalm 62:8) He knows you fully and loves you perfectly. Regardless of what your feelings may tell you, your circumstances suggest, and the enemy insist– you are not forgotten. Jesus, hanging on the cross and bearing the wrath of God, cried out “My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?” He was forgotten so that you never will be. (
My sister recently accepted a 3-5 year commitment in Haiti. I can thankfully say my heart-response was a lot different this time. While I pray for the day I too will find “my place,” I also pray my life will be marked by faithfulness today. I don’t want to live my life waiting for the next thing as if I were forgotten. I want to live in the reality of my God who is always the same.
If you desire to grow in this area, below is a list of several passages of Scripture the Lord has used in my life during this season. Start with one! Make this your prayer as you read: “Search me, O God, and know my heart; try me, and know my thoughts: and see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.” (Psalm 139:23-24)
- Isaiah 49:14-16
- Isaiah 54:10
- Psalm 62
- Psalm 73
- Hebrews 13:5
Also– this article by a dear friend speaks to this topic as well.