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My Portion Forever


My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Psalm 73:26 ESV

As I face the daily difficulty of nausea and headaches and fatigue I’m clinging to the reality that though my flesh and heart may fail, God is the strength of my heart & my portion forever. (You can read a bit more about my health here and here.)

He is my portion.

More of Jesus

So be it that my flesh is failing– let it all go, if only I may have more of Jesus. 

Father, let me be weak that I may lose my clutch on everything temporal. My life, my reputation, my possessions. Lord, let me lose the tension of the grasping hand… Rather open my hand to receive the nail of Calvary, as Christ’s was opened– that I in releasing all, might be released, unleashed from all that binds me now. He thought Heaven, yea, equality with God, not a thing to be clutched at. So let me release my grasp. 

Jim Elliot

He Chooses the Weak

For consider your calling, brothers: not many of you were wise according to worldly standards, not many were powerful, not many were of noble birth. But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, so that no human being might boast in the presence of God. … so that, as it is written, “Let the one who boasts, boast in the Lord.”

1 Corinthians 1:26-29, 31 ESV

He chooses to use the weak to shame the strong. And perhaps the unhealthy to shame the healthy.

The Pattern of Scripture

The pattern of Scripture is suffering and difficulty. Not health, comfort, and ease.

So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.

2 Corinthians 4:16-18 ESV

Wasting away. That’s how I feel sometimes. But guess what– as my outward man is wasting away, the inward man is being renewed. This affliction is preparing for me an “eternal weight of glory, beyond all comparison.” My physical body is only transient. 

His Sufficient Grace

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 12:9-10 ESV

This is the pattern of Scripture– God being glorified in our weakness. Not in our health, our strength, our prosperity, or our wealth. In our weakness.

My Portion

The LORD is my chosen portion and my cup; you hold my lot. The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance.

Psalm 16:5-6 ESV

He is our portion. Not health, wealth, and prosperity. The health, wealth, and prosperity Gospel fixes our eyes on the temporal, on that which does not last, and it usurps the place of God in our lives. He is our portion and inheritance. He is our focus and that which we seek. 

“The LORD is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in him.”

Lamentations 3:24 ESV